Whoah Urbana!

Reflections on my 4th Urbana (which represents 12 years of involvement with InterVarsity Christian Fellowship):
(St. Louis Arch at sunrise)

This is my fourth Urbana. I cannot believe I am here - and I mean that both sarcastically and seriously! My first one was in 1996 as a student, the next two were as IV staff and now as a Denver Seminary graduate student.

(Friends: former student, Sarah and friend from my church in RI, Jay)

For those of you who are new here, here's the quick update: I was an InterVaristy staff member for 6 years in New England (NE) working with commuter students in RI. InterVarsity (IV or IVCF) is a national and international organization on around 600 college campuses throughout the US with a ministry of campus outreach to students, staff and faculty. My time with them as a staff member (missionary) was both really good and really complex; I'm still, to some degree, sorting out the experience.
(Below: fellow former staff friends/friends from college, Doug and Patri)

Now then...
I was really surprised at how eager I was to come when the opportunity presented itself on campus back in Denver (I'm writing this from St. Louis, where the conference is being held). I think I understand why now.
This conference and week are about God's work and mission in the world and providing students with tools, contacts, encouragement and teaching for them to engage that mission with Him. (Frontier's missions exhibit tent) That message and those tools were given to me as a student and deepened in me as a staff member and now are part of my 'basic operating system.' I love this in part because it affirms some basic commitments I have to serve God to the best of my ability all of my life. I also love it because I love to see people learn, grow and pass on what they've gained.

All that said, I don't think that that's what my time here has been about. I have not gone to every session, run to every workshop or sought out mentorship the way I have at past Urbanas. I feel that my 'mission' here (aside from talking to students about my seminary, which was my 'paid' job here), was to reconnect with my old co-laborers and friends from NE. To encourage where I can, listen, and let them know I may have left in body, but am very much still there in prayer and love.


(Great old friend/roommate from college, Rose)
I had some very encouraging conversations with some folks in leadership and am so happy to hear that my region is healing and taking great strides forward in moving past some messy and ugly times; God is transforming. That brings me great peace to know. It was also encouraging to hear that I left the ministry well. In ministry, so much of your life is relationships and mine was no exception. I really felt that my supervisor did a wonderful job of encouraging me to follow God wherever He lead, beit on staff or not. But it was such a complicated time when I left, I was not sure I left well with my team and region. It was a blessing to hear that I had.

For me, this Urbana has been on of watching, loving and praying but from more of a distance than I've ever had here before. It doesn't make me sad, though, as I think it would have a few years ago. I have loved this week to meet and catch up with a plethora of old friends, students and staff. I have peace with the life I had in RI and with the life I'm leading now in CO.

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(It's really dark, I know - this is the stage with the theme on it)
It's funny that the theme of this conference is the book of Ephesians - one of the most encouraging books in the bible next to the Psalms, in my opinion - and that the theme tag line is "LIVE a life worthy of the calling." When I got back from Mozambique three years ago, I made a vow with God that I would choose to live. That I would stop putting myself in positions that just felt like dying. I loved staff work in many ways, but I needed to move on, to grow and develop fully into the person God made me to be and I could no longer see how to do that on staff; God called me onward. Feeling a sort of 'death' the longer I stayed was a good indicator.
(Worlds collide: Army buddy LT Todd from the summer, and Jim Harding, a Regional Director with Africa Inland Mission) I love that the Lord is continuing to affirm and call me to truly LIVE and not settle for what is familiar or even comfortable. As scary as things can sometimes be in seminary, the Army and the direction of my life, I am finding that I have been honoring that call to LIVE. I guess it may be that it is better to be a little scared and truly live than to feel completely safe and stuck.

This week has been truly a blessing in connecting with old friends from a wide range of my 'worlds.' I was able to catch up with (or at least see) friends from different missions agencies I've been involved with, former students (love to the Sarah and Becca!) and have some wonderful times of catching up with old friends from college. Even my Army 'world' was here representing the Chaplain Corps - including a guy I was in training with last summer! I ALMOST brought my uniform, but didn't think we'd be here, so didn't at the last minute! Bummer!

(Friend and former student, Becca - aww...)
All that now said, I've also been working on a paper for my January term class that starts next week. *sigh* Please keep me in prayer for this class and next semester as always!

Oh - for those of you who are wondering - the blizzard (the first one!) was terrific! I helped a friend move during it and had a BLAST. There's currently (even when I left) an IMPRESSIVE amount of snow - I'll post pics next time as I need to go take some!
(The Denver seminary recruiting Team: Julie (the real recruiter - we learned from the Jedi master, herself), Douglas (a first-year, but we love him anyway ;) ) and Angela (fellow MDiv and worship leader on campus) - and our favorite snack...beef jerky)



Thanks for praying for me for this week as well as my seminary adventures - I really appreciate it! HAPPY NEW YEAR GANG! - Love, Ter

November Notes...

Wow...What an amazing, difficult, learning-rich semester it is turning out to be. Thanks so much for hanging in here, gang - I really need you this semester and next. I've been studying the first half of the book of Romans in Greek this semester. For those of you who aren't so familiar with it, the first 4 chapters are talking about the total depravity of humanity and how we couldn't be any farther from God if we jumped. Paul is setting the stage for the amazing, unmerited free gift of God in Jesus for us. Have you ever had a time in your life when you just feel like you're living out a piece of scripture?


I feel that my life has been mirroring these passages these past few months. I know that I am ALWAYS writing/talking about the joys and trials of my relationships, and this post will be no exception. I've blown it really big with one friend in particular this semester, ended a relationship I was in and have been feeling very 'in touch' with how messed up I am lately. Not a pretty picture. I even feel vaguely justified in throwing myself a bit of a pity-party (which I have, thankfully, not yet indulged). But, as I said, I do feel that I am living the book of Romans right now. My state has been one of utter depravity and rebellion against God (to parallel the case in Chs 1-4).

Last week we started chapter 5. The Kingdom Strikes Back. "Therefore since we have been justified through faith we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand." (5.1). I've been a mess since I was born (so were you, BTW - sorry). Because of what Jesus did on the cross all our sins are dealt with - even the ones we're surprised to find ourselves in or didn't think we were capable of (even our mistakes). This is not a new bit of theology to me - I would have said that is what I knew and believed years ago. Somehow the message of peace and grace is striking me differently, more deeply in this time in my life.

A good friend and some Army aquaintaces this past summer spoke a word of God into my life. They said "you can't give what you don't have." Again, not earth shattering news or even logic. But it prompted me to ask the Lord what is it I don't have that I keep trying to give? I believe he told me I don't have real grace. I have a cheap version. A version that looks like grace on the outside, but does not have the weight and scandalous freedom that God's genuine grace contains. Romans is about a lot of things, but for me, right now, it's all about teaching me what is the grace of God

I've been realizing this semester that I have all these crazy personal rules for myself that I would NEVER apply to another person. And if I saw another person with these rule I would apply my whole life and mind to freeing them from them. It's stupid things like, 'it's ok if I get hurt so long as no one else does' or 'other people's time and lives are more important than mine' - stupid stuff that makes me more of a door mat than a true servant of God. Grace for 'blowing it' does not mean "whew...Glad He let that one go, I'll be sure not let it happen again;' it means something more like, "Thank you Jesus for loving me better than I love myself, encouraging me to walk in freedom and not being even vaguely angry or surprised by my sins and mistakes.'

*Sigh* It's been a deeply thoughtful semester. I'm really grateful for the way the Lord is shaping my character and for His ongoing care - I really do want to be more like him at the end of the day. I am continually surprised at the depth of depravity we're all capable of, but I'm trying to turn my focus more to the wonder of friends and 'divinely appointed' people God keeps dropping into my life to remind me that it's not all bad and that one day, it will all be amazing. We were, after all not created for a sinful, fallen world; we were created for perfect communion with God and each other (heaven?...that's at least part of it...).

The rest of my classes have been really good. Hebrew is very challenging and I don't anticipate getting as much out of it as I have in Greek, but it does look like I will pass it this semester (and do decently). I also have 2 history classes this semester - one Old Testament history of Israel and the Prophets and the other is Church history of the early church to the renaissance. I got to spend a little time studying the Crusades...very cool - I didn't realize they lasted over about 1,500 years or that they were so poorly organized and (for the most part) led.



Lest you think I've had no fun at all this semester, I've included a couple of photos of friends and events I've been a part of this semester. The ones with the pumpkin is my friend Susan's (and her dog Abby) - she's does this crazy 'monster-creation' garden in the summer and she's sitting next to a 35lb pumpkin that she grew (she's got another one that's 33lbs). We' split this (yes...I did get to use my machete...*happy*) the other night and looked up a variety of pumpkin recipe's (got any good ones? I'd love a good main dish recipe - I have a ravioli sauce one and a couple of soup ones...) I was also really blessed to have my old pal Bonnie out for a weekend - I took her down to Garden of the Gods and we found this cool little 'canyon' while we were exploring and catching up.

On the really exciting side (at least in my little world...) - I get to go to Urbana 06 - InterVarsity's tri-annual mission conference! It was always one of my all-time FAVORITE events when I was on staff/a student and I didn't think I would be able to go because I am a broke grad student...However! My school needed some students to go and represent the school as exhibitioners and I was one of the lucky 4 who got picked to go on this fabulous, all expense paid event! SO...If any of you plan on going - COME FIND ME at the Denver Seminary booth (we're planning on having a cool couch set up with at least one video game option...very fun...) - I would love to catch up with y'all!! Aside from all that coolness, I'm really excited to be traveling - I REALLY miss it.

As for Mike, the fella I was semi-dating, thanks for your prayers for us. It did not work out, but I know that God has good things in store for both of us.

Prayer reqs:
- We have 3 weeks left - I'm REALLY tired - please pray I have the will/energy to make it
- Pray that God will help me (and us all, I think) to accept His grace and be at peace with it all
- Pray for Mike - he is deploying to Kosovo for a little over a year
- Pray for Urbana - that God would be preparing me (and everyone involved) to be there - to receive and give what God has in store
- Please also begin to pray for me for next semester - I anticipate it being even more challenging than this one and I fear for it already...

Praise:
- I'm grateful/thankful that God is clarifying my relationships and making me a stronger person
- I'm praising God for good friends and 'drop ins'
- For a wonderful TG - I was able to be with friends from school and church
- For the opportunity to reconnect with 'loved ones' from my IV 'family' at Urbana

I hope you all are well - Stay in touch! - Love in Christ, Ter

Long Overdue Update...

Hey gang - I know...I know...I'm a horrible communicator - I haven't written in MONTHS! I'm hoping to fall on your grace and mercy for taking so long to get back here.

Just to round out the summer 'camp' stuff - it was really an affirming and exciting time for me. Partly why I stopped writing was because there was not much of interest to report. It was largely classroom instruction after those first few weeks. The Lord blessed me with some great fellowship with my fellow pastors, men and women. I really loved my squad and platoon and learned SO much about the Army and male culture in general; the gang was very patient and willing to teach me what I needed to know.

So here we are in yet another fall and I've been thinking (surprise, surprise). This is shaping up to be a very stressful semester, but not a necessarily busy one. I am taking 2nd year Greek (we're studying Romans) and 1st yr Hebrew as well as a church history and old testament class. The two languages are consuming my life. In Greek, I am realizing that I have ABSOLUTELY NO concept of English grammar. Having moved 17 times by the time I was 18 wreaked havoc on my consistent understanding of our language; if my Dad hadn't been a writer I would have been sunk. My professor has loaned me a book on grammar, but I'm feeling rather hopeless about it right now...

In spite of all that, I am really loving my classes this semester. I am able to do some rough translations of our Greek text for the book of Romans and the Lord is speaking SO clearly to me. The book is difficult to get your mind around in the English, the Greek is even more rich. I do love the nuance that is being brought out.

Hebrew is proving to be a very organized language so far, much more so than Greek has been. Our professor is an amazing scholar in her field and she is an EXCELLENT teacher; very systematic, personable and (appropriately) tough.

Personally, I continue to grow in my friendships, making mistakes and learning how to let God be my very best friend. Ah, the elusive hunt for 'balance' continues.

Recently God has put a new friend in my life. His name is Mike. We met during the training this summer. He thinks I'm kinda' cute (and I think he is, too). I'm trying to not just freak out (failing miserably), but its been a long time since I did this 'dating' thing! Please pray for me/us - whatever comes to mind is greatly appreciated!

As far as ministry goes, I finally feel ready to re-engage in more formal ministry and the Lord has opened the door for me to be the coordinator of a small group that I'm a part of in my church. I'm really excited to be doing this - I'll be organizing, occasionally leading and facilitating the group. It feels like a good place to start formally leading again. Please pray that I wouldn't let my own warped expectations for myself take over; pray that I'm reasonable in my expectations for myself and the group. I really just want to continue to enjoy the group for who they are.

That's the scoop for now...

Prayer Reqs:
-Greek Grammar!!(that I would get it...)
-Stress (related to above)
-Mike...
-Sleep (related to all the above...I'm really not doing this all that well right now)
-Small Group ministry (we're taking about merging with another sm gr in the church that I know as we're both on the small side...I think this will be a good move for both of our groups...pray that the Lord makes it clear if that's true)
-Please pray for my friends Mark and Carl; these dear men have both recently lost their fathers and grieve.

Praise:
-Romans study (God is good)
-Mike
-time to do the work I have
-good friends who hope with me for the future
-For the interesting things He's up to in the world...

End of Week 2

Look Ma! She CAN March!
This was my favorite thing so far - I got to rappel down this tower - that's me on the left out in the air.
Waiting in line for my chance to jump!

Well, we're back from the FOB - what a weird, crazy 'camping' trip! I didn't get many pictures from there as I didn't bring my camera (a disposable one would have been good here), but we essentially lived in tents for a 2 nights. Due to unprecedented thunder storms, we were unable to do a night land navigation course and were sent back to the hotel for one night in the middle of the training. They're super serious about our safety here. We did do a ropes course and have been receiving course instruction in: environmental law, humvee/motor pool protocol/procedures (and culture), discussion on our non-combatant status, and given time with the chaplains to ask our personal questions. It has been an incredibly physically, emotionally and spiritually challenging week (in a really good way for the most part). We were all really tired when it was winding down and the moral was sort of tanking. We have this weekend off, but have homework assignments. Today was nice for me. I had time to sleep in, do some errands and get most of my assignments knocked out for Monday. This week will be almost exclusively classroom instruction, so no more fun photos this week.

Week2.3 (Thurs/Fri)

Hey Gang - I'm off to something called the Forward Operating Base (FOB) in a minute, but thought I'd update y'all. The last couple of days we've been doing various obstacle courses. Yesterday we did the confidence course (my personal favorite so far) - here are some pics from the range. I sort of cheated on my profile and did all the obstacles in my sneakers...my heal is VERY much improved and I had no problems with the course. I was also able to get better fitting boots yesterday evening - I STRONGLY recommend you get a pair called Altama's (we call them sneaker boots - they're light weight and the bottoms look like sneakers and they fit/wear like sneakers) - for those of you who are reading this with CHOBC in your future - either way, DO BREAK IN YOUR BOOTS BEFORE YOU GET HERE!!

Please pray for me today as I go on this exercise. This is expected to be the most physically demanding part of the course and I think is designed to simulate deployment conditions. Pray my heals hold up (left one is ok, but still a little sensitive in one spot). Talk to y'all in 5 days (we'll be back Wends). -Ter You had to shimmy down this upside down on your ankles (I didn't do this one as I didn't have boots on)
This is our platoon (PTL) leadership team - the PLT leader and 4 squad leaders, we had dinner the other night and got to know each other some.
This was the BEST obstacle - you had to walk over a log (climb over some stairs in the middle) and go up a ladder - after this you got strapped into a parachute harness and jump off a tower down a cable - HOKA HEY!

Week 2: Tuesday/Wednesday

Hey Gang - not much to report right now. I did decide to have my heel looked at yesterday as one area was not healing properly. I am on something called 'profile' for the next few days and allowed to wear sneakers and not run (bummer there, but we haven't been doing any in PT this week, so ok so far). I just wanted to be sure I'd be able to fully participate in Sat-Wends field exercise we'll be going on this week - I hear we'll get to rappel the Victory tower - I CAN'T WAIT (or miss that!). So here are some pics (to the left are the offending footwear):

It was one of the women's birthday, so we all went out to dinner - we almost got all the women at this CHOBC - just missed one!

We do this 'bus' thing from time to time - can you pick me out? (I'll give you a hint, I'm on the left in the camouflage uniform...)


New friends: L-R: Ola and Kitisha.



Well, I'm outta time - thanks for rooting for me, I sure appreciate it! Stay in touch!!

Week 2.1 (Weekend + Monday)

Hi Gang! The weekend was BLESSEDLY mellow and uneventful. Today was another story. Today I can officially say I have been gassed by the US government. We had to do the practical application of gas mask usage. They say it's it so we will learn that our gas masks are reliable and so that we'll be able to identify some with victims of a gas attack. Apparently this the gas they used on us is a version of the gas Saddam used to kill 1500 of his own people when he was testing it out. It's miserable, nasty stuff.

At first, I didn't think the whole thing was so bad - we marched into the chamber (20 of us) and the instructors in there had us line up shoulder to shoulder against the walls (we had our masks on before we got in there). One at a time they had us raise our masks, say our full names and social security number (this was so we'd get some gas in our masks and have to clear it properly). So far, ok, no big deal - I got to feel the gas (a skin irritant) burn my facial skin a little, but not unbearable. Then came the hard part. In order to leave we had to fully remove our masks and just be in the gas for 15 seconds. Sounds easy, right? I thought so. They warned us that we would want to panic when we took off our masks. They told us we would need to fight that instinct and stay in control. I fought that fight. When I took off that mask, almost immediately I felt my body begin to freak out. I couldn't breath, my eyes and face were stinging and it was very hot all of a sudden. I held it together enough to get out. I thought that would be it - ok, game over - now breath again and get on with it, right? Once I hit the air, all I wanted to do was hit the ground. I still couldn't breath or see and my skin still burned. I felt like coughing and throwing up all at the same time, but nothing would come out. (I'm so thankful I took a classmate's advice and skipped breakfast). I was also grateful there was a sergeant at the end calling encouragement to me to keep moving and flap and breath (you had to flap your arms to get the gas off you - the only antidote to this gas is fresh air). God was gracious; there was a cool (more so than the chamber) breeze that came up as I was walking out that really helped me clear the gas. It was really a scary thing for about 2-3 minutes there, even know this was minor and people were looking out for us.

As I did two short laps around a loop flapping, I really felt like crying. Not because of the physical ordeal (that really wasn't so bad), but because I know there are people who have died in that. It was a sickening, sobering, saddening thought that one human being could do that to another and leave someone to die in that. I've been pondering/praying about that all day.

PR
-Pray for people in countries where biological and chemical warfare is still practiced (Iraq, Iran, etc.); pray for God's mercy and protection.

Day 6

(This is some of my AMAZING Squad! 2nd Squad, 4th Platoon))

Well, today was mixed. On the one hand I got to learn how to do something called D and C - Drill and ceremony (ie: how to march). That was really fun - the Platoons all competed at the end of the session to see who came out the best. My platoon (4th) came in 3rd of 4...not a total loss, but not a total win either...room to grow...(our motto is "Last Shall Be First"...we've got some way to go to make that true! This day reminded me of my college marching band. I hated it, but not the marching part - it was the playing an marching part I disliked (I never liked putting my instrument in jeopardy). I remember complaining to God about having to do marching band in college. Today I had to apologize for that criticism as the Lord used it to prepare me for today. *sigh*


The mixed part was that someone called our SGL (Staff Group Leader - a senior Chaplain and trainer here at the school and our direct officer commander in the 'official' (non-student) ranks) assigned us a 2 mile/2x a week march in our new boots. Well, as you can imagine, that didn't go so well - the picture to the left is of my left heel - hamburger. Rubbed the skin right off on that hike last night - which of course, made today a virtual nightmare to walk...I did what I needed to do, but couldn't hide the limp. Got a lot of care in it, though. The guys all rallied around me throughout the day with helpful suggestions and one did a stellar job of bandaging up the wound so I could drill today. I really don't want to miss anything and am thoroughly enjoying the training. I knew I'd have most of Saturday off (out of boots), so I thought I'd just push through today. Got through it, but was a little too short with a Colonel who adjusted me quickly - we're ok, I apologized and he forgave and kindly ordered me to have an NCO (non-commissioned officer) look at my ankle (which I did). It more just tried my patience today than anything else - I don't want to be injured this early in the training (I'm so happy my PT test is over!) Tomorrow, I will rest and get lots of air on this.

PR:
- Pray for Keith, one of my squad members - he had to quit and go home today due to a crisis in his church. It was sad for us all to see him go - we know what it took to get here. We prayed over him as a group as he left.
- Pray for quick recovery of my heal(s) (the other one's a little banged up too -yes, I know about mole-skin and inserts and wearing an extra pair of socks- am on it!)
- We are preparing to get gassed. (really) We were issued gas masks today and will receive training on how to use (deploy) them Sunday afternoon. I've heard lots of gnarly stories about this experiance, so pray I acquit myself well.
- We are also preparing to spend a week 'in the field' at something called a FOB (Forward Operating Base) - don't know what this is or where - but we've been issued everything from Kevlar helmets and flack jackets to sleeping bags - sort of sounds like an extremists' camping trip...Pray what ever comes to mind ....
- I'm having to do 20 pull ups a day (my whole platoon is thanks to SGL - just to stregnth us, not to punish) - I can't even do 1 - my platoon has to help me up over the bar - please pray I would at least get to the point where I can do a couple - I feel bad making these guys work so hard!
- Please also pray for me as squad leader - there are a lot of responsibilities (it seems like I'm learning new ones every day). Pray I do well, or step aside gracefully should the need arise.

Thanks for all you who have been pulling for me for the PT test these past 2 years! I couldn't have done it without all you ongoing encouragement and support! Thanks Nancee for sending me a terrific letter (my first mail here!)!! Thanks Lynette for calling/debriefing with me most days!!

Days 4-5

I PASSED MY PT TEST COMPLETELY!! I did the 2 mile run in a personal record of 19.30 (or40)something (I never did get the exact time), did 50 sit-ups in under 2 minutes (I gave out at 1:30, really), and 20 (one kinda' squishy, but the scorer let it go) push ups in under 2 minutes. I also passed the weight requirement! This was a diagnostic test, so it means I am in terrific shape to be taking the 'real' test in three weeks. Today was very exhausting. Not much to say about yesterday - we just got issued some gear and spent a lot of time waiting around for stuff. Tomorrow is the first day we will all be in uniform...I'm very excited...
but now I need to sleep...(3am wake up call for 4am drill...) - peace, ter

Day 3

Great day today. We learned a lot about Military courtesy and customs, did more paperwork and did a little PT instructional. Apparently there's a hurricane on, so we've been getting a LOT of rain. It was cloudy, but not raining all day until we were doing out PT - then it decides to rain. Of course. Here's a shot of me after our first PT in the rain. We also re-formed into Platoons (4 Platoons make a company - as a class we form a company); I'm in 4th Platoon and am 2nd Squad leader - learning tons and have great guys to work with - and yes, I am the only woman in my platoon. We start PT pre-testing tomorrow, though my platoon won't go until Thursday. I'm a little nervous about that, but there are a lot of folks here who will need to work on their PT and the instructors have been very encouraging about it so far.

Prayer Reqs:
- Continued flexibility
- Ability to learn quickly all the things I will need to do and be accountable for as squad leader.
- God's mercy/grace/gifting to be a good squad leader
- Good sleep - doing better here, but still needs to be even better than it is!

Thanks Gang! - love, ter

LET THE GAMES BEGIN!

Day 1-2: USACHOBC (US Army Chaplain Office Basic Course)

Well, here we are kids! Like the guy in this stock photo to the left, I feel that I am somewhat dangling in mid-air, but loving ever minute of it! After two years of planning, prayer and preparation, I have safely arrived at Ft Jackson, SC and have been getting familiar with the base, people and culture of this Ft and my new mission to Military Ministry. So far, VERY COOL. We've been treated EXTREMELY well so far - given lots of 'hand holding' and grace as we're being shepherded to the various paperwork/instructional events we have to attend. We're still in civilian clothes (civies) but will probably be 'suiting up' starting Friday. I've already made the cardinal mistake of volunteering (*GASP*) to be a squad leader - no idea what I'm doing, but thought it would be the best time to volunteer - the expectations are low and grace is high. So far all I've really needed to do is make sure/lead my squad onto a bus, line them up in formation and collect some money from them - a little stressful since we are a class of 131 people (incidentally, there are 7 of us who are women and apparently this is a class record!). The guys are great so far and are living up to my expectations for pastors and officers; I expect that image will take some 'scuffing up' over the next few weeks, but what can one do? We got uniforms, ID badges, 'dog' tags (ID tags), registered our vehicles (POVs - Personally Owned Vehicles) on base and did a billion other bits of paper that will at some point result in getting paid. We start early (getting earlier every day), but are not yet doing PT (Physical Training)- that starts later this week I'm told.

Our class motto is "Pro Deo et Patri - Get It Done!" Which we shout at the top of our lungs at the beginning an end of each group session. I'm rather wrapped up in the novelty of it all still and am loving that I have a 'battle buddy' (and that I get to say things like "Yes, sergeant I have a Battle Buddy!" and "Yes , Moving ," then running to the object of the conversation (just picking up papers so far).) The moral is terrific so far, just a few people seem to just really not be happy, everyone seems at least ok. Our sergeant Dawson tells us there is no such thing as a bad day in the Army - a Bad Day is when someone comes home dead. We just have good days and great days. Whoa.

I'm living in a single hotel room. It's fairly scuzzy (just found out we have roaches...!!....), but I am alone, have cable TV, VCR/DVD and high speed internet. I also have nights and weekends off. Not a horrible life so far. I guess the pace will be more bent toward the days. I also do not yet have home work, though I hear I will at some point.

Today's Prayer Requests:
-Good/restful sleep (worry-free)
-For the Chaplains/soldiers here who are having a hard time being here
-God's protection of my heart and mind as the 'games' begin
-Solid connection with Jesus as my leader/guide and friend here
-Continued good connection with the other women here (we've already experience some AWESOME fellowship together, but it will be easy to forget/loose in the business of the days)

Thanks for checking in on me! I may not have time/energy to write you back right away, but I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to hear from you here. I will try to update this every day or two (as much for a journal for me as to keep you in updated prayer!) Blessings and Peace, Ter

End 'O the Year Reflections...

Wow, I can't believe I've finished the last week of my first year in seminary last week. What a whirlwind! It has been an amazingly healing year for me. God is very deep into 'restoring that which was lost.'


It's amazing how quickly the Lord can help you build a life. I haven't been sleeping terribly well since I came out here. I have awoke many times with the thought of "what will become of me" ringing in my head. It's been a very unnerving thing to be in a place where I have no established relationships and limited knowledge of the area. But despite that, it has also been a wonderful thing. The Lord has blessed me with two new close friends, my friend Nancee who I introduced you to last time, and recently my new friend Lynette. Lynette's been a real gift to my soul in a number of ways - she a compassionate listener, deep thinker, and fellow musician. She's also a blast to hike with - she's filling me in on all the floral and fauna in the area. This is us hiking Bergen Peak.

It is funny to me now, that when I came here I was so dead set on not becoming deep friends with people again. I knew that wouldn't last, but I held out for a while! I love that the Lord sees what we really need and knows what we really mean when we tell him things. He knew it wasn't that I didn't ever want to have close friends again, it was that I was tired of getting hurt in my friendships in the same ways. So not only did He put these amazing people in my life who care for me and whom I can care for, but he also He continued the work of teaching me boundaries in my relationships.

I have to do 5 semesters in the mentorship program here. It's a self directed study encompassing two contracts a semester, one on developing an aspect of our character and one developing a ministry skill you'd like to improve on. In theory it sounds great, in reality, it's logistically nightmarish. One must meet weekly with 2 mentors of your choice (but you have to have the same ones all semester)and work through a 5 point plan that you write at the beginning of the semester which includes academic as well as relational aspects. This was my first semester doing this and I did my contracts on Friendship (Character contract) and Worship (Ministry Skill). A book I read and highly recommend in the area of thinking through friendship is Alered of Rivealux's Spiritual Friendship. There are limited things about Alered's perspective (he was a 12cent. monk), but many of the principles he discusses surprisingly still hold true in our would. I found it very helpful in my thinking.

Academically, it was a good year. I passed 1st year Greek (yea!) and have already begun looking at next year's assignments - I'll be studying sections of the book of Romans. I have completed 36 credits this year, which is 1/3 of the program, so I am right on track with that; Lord willing it will continue to be so!

I guess the real news right now is that I will be heading off to Ft. Jackson, S. Carolina next week. I have been anticipating this time for nearly 2 years. I find myself nervous in a way, but more curious and excited at this point. I feel physically ready (barely, but there none the less). I'm a little worried about the whole 'screaming drill sergeant' thing, so I would appreciate prayer for that.

The Lord has also blessed me with a really great small group Bible study in my church. They're going to do a little prayer/BBQ/send off thing for me in our group this Sunday evening and I love that they're supporting and encouraging me. I'm inviting Nancee, Lynette and my other friend David who is a Chaplain Assistant in a unit I'm trying to get assigned to - terrific guy, been teaching me a ton about Army culture and practices.

Well, that's it for now - I'll try to update here once I get there, I hear I'll have internet access, but it may be a while. If you want to send me a snail mail this summer here's the address:

Chaplain Officer Basic Course
LT. Terri King
10100 Lee Rd.
Ft. Jackson, SC 29207-7090

I will be back in RI after the course is over (I couldn't came to the East Coast and not come up, right?). I expect to be there from around July 25-Aug 3. So if you want to hang out, let me know! My cell is still the same: 401.368.2080.

Summer Prayer Requests:
- Physical fitness- PLEASE pray I pass my fit tests and that my knees hold up well.
- Psychological 'warfare' - please pray that I can stand up to the 'psych' games the Army throws at new recruits.
- Academic - this will be a lot like taking more classes, please pray I have a sharp mind and excel at whatever they give us.
- Travel - I will be driving something like 4,000 miles this summer - pray that my truck holds up and that I don't get into any accidents.
- Family - my step father Elliott, will in all likelihood have passed away by the time I get back to RI. He has struggled with kidney disease for the last 20 years and is finally at the end of what his body can cope with. Please pray for my mom Hilda during this time. Pray too for Elliott's adult sons as they struggle with loosing their father.

Pics from this year:



My good friends Natalie and Melissa came out to visit early this past semster and we were able to go to a National Forest - we got a buck of close up pictures of this heard of elk!






I was blessed to spend a week on a S. Dakota, Lakota Indian reservation a fews weeks ago as part of my degree. We were able to drive out to the badlands one afternoon - here they are!

My first day in uniform!

Well, this is my first day in uniform - can you pick out what's not right about this picture? ( no cover (hat) while I'm outside (they didn't have the cover in my (freakishly small) head size, so I'm waiting for it to get in), Earings, and no American flag on my sholder - these got overlooked - oups!) It looks like I'll be starting to work with the 502nd Hosptial unit starting the first weekend next month! I'm very excited! It will be a good opportunity to do an informal internship before I go to training this summer.
ION - thanks for praying for me, March has been a much less painful month than February was; menotr stuff is resolved very well and that is beginning to bear fruit. Please keep my Greek in prayer, its been a real struggle this semester. Peace, Ter

Prayer and Encouragement Needed...

Dear Prayer and Encouragement Team -
Greetings from sunny Colorado! The title of this month's entry may be a bit alarmist, but it has been a significantly more complex semester this time. Classes are not proving to be much more difficult than last semester (though Greek sure has stepped up a notch), its just been relationally exceptionally challenging. I feel like I left RI with lots of mixed feelings about friendship, mentoring and ministry and God, in his wisdom and mercy, saw fit to give me a break last semester in regards to all of that. However, now is the time he has chosen to begin healing and moving me (hopefully) forward.

I have two professional mentors with the seminary's mentorship program that I am required to meet with weekly as well as a professor led, peer group on campus that I am also required to meet with weekly. While in theory I love this and feel that it will be a great tool in moving forward personally and professionally in life, I am struggling deeply with how to have/keep the boundaried God has spent the last six or so years teaching me how to have. It is the expectation of the seminary that I will share deeply with these people and grow through the experience (which I do think can happen) and so far (for the most part) they are proving to be people who are/will be worthy of trust. The trouble I'm having is the speed with which I'm feeling I should 'get into stuff' with these groups. I have sort of rediscovered that it does take me a while to warm up to people to the point where I'm willing to share the deeper parts of my inner world. (Of course, as some of you know, once you get into that you can't shut me up!) It's a bit of a shock for me as I haven't been so 'rawly' new to a place since my freshman year in undergrad. So I think that's part of the culture shock here for me, too.

God has not left me without resources, however. In addition to the wisdom, grace and love he has poured out on me, he has also given me two folks (in addition to a few others I am still getting to know) who are quickly becoming very close friends:
Josh and Nancee. Josh is a early twenty-something fellow MDiver who is married and lives in Boulder. He's very 'New Englandy' in spite of never having been there - I think he'd fit well in Boston. He's into literature/poetry and sarcasm. Nancee is a married, mid forty-something, occasional women's pastor, Counseling/Chaplaincy major. She came up to me last semester and said, "Hey, I always see you running around. I want you to stop and be by friend. (!)" - I thought that was both hysterical and direct enough for me to be intrigued. They are quickly becoming points of prayer, encouragement and listening ears in my life.

The Lord is opening some very cool, but scary doors for me in military ministry. I recently made a contact with a Army Chaplain Major in the reserves. We had a great conversation and I have hopes that he will be an informal mentor in helping me bridge the gap into the military world. He is trying to help me get assigned to a unit starting next month. I'm thinking it will be a sort of informal internship sort of thing. The other cool, semi-scary thing the Lord has opened up for me is the chance to play with a worship team on Buckley AFB - I started last week and had a great time (the drummer is as 'rhythmically flexible' as I am!)

I guess the last thing on my mind this month is that I got my first uniform yesterday. It's the new pattern - grey/sandy, digital patterned. This is probably the thing that has made this whole Army thing feel the most real so far. It was a monumentous thing to me. I found myself praying on the way home that the Lord would give me strength, grace and wisdom for the time when there is blood on this uniform (my own or someone else's). Perhaps it's a bit melodramatic (I know I can be), but it was what came to mind. It doesn't diminish my desire to do this job; just feeling some of the possible weight of it.

Prayer requests:
- Emotional stability in all areas of my life! (I've had enough drama for this semester!!) Pray too that I would start handling the many new people and roles in my life with greater flexibility and love and less fear.
- Help and wisdom in relating to one of my mentors (long, complex, dramatic story you're better off not hearing)
- Motivation/time/energy to complete assignments due this month
- strength to keep up my running regimen

Praise:
- For new good friends
- For one mentor who really 'gets' me and is a good mentor/friend to me
- For conflict resolution with the other mentor (we worked some stuff out really well)
- Fred (my truck) is holding up well!


Two Announcements:
- My friend and brother in the Lord, Bill Kinneman went to be with the Lord this week. He always prayed for me and responded with encouragement and joy to anything I wrote him. I will miss him. I thought I'd pass this along as some of you may know him or his family but not yet have heard. Please pray for Barbara (his wife) and their grown children and grandchildren.

- My Friend Irene Eng Wong and her husband Will just had their first munchkin Caroline this past Tuesday the 21st!! Will reports that Irene needed a C section, but that mother and baby are doing well; they went home today. I spoke with her briefly and she sounded good!

I hope you all are well - stay in touch! - Love, Terri

Thoughts on Theology...

Hey Gang- well, the grades are in - I pulled off a 3.2 and the worst grade I got was a B - PTL! For the last week (and upcoming one), I've been embroiled in the first of two semesters of what is called "Survey of Christian Doctrine I" - otherwise know as Integrative (or systematic) Theology. So far, I absolutely love it. This is a shock, as I thought it would be a pointless exercise in dogma - but far from it. I am finding invaluable information in solidifying my own theology as well as application to practical apologetics. This weekend I have been deeply wresting with understanding Calvinism and Arminianism. I have quickly come to understand there is a deep divide in these systems of theology and those that stand behind each position. I have to give a presentation on Arminianism this week, so I have been focusing on this position mostly. It seems that it have been both deeply defamed in history and (at least somewhat) twisted in modern application; thus most Calvinists view Arminianism as aberrant theology. The real issue seems to be over predestination. Hard core Calvinists seem to hold that God preordained the Fall, thus salvation was planed from the beginning of time and that certain people are preordained by God (elected) to go to heaven and some to hell - this is supposed to maintain God's sovereignty . Armininism seems to hold that God has offered his free abounding Grace to all, and though he (may?) know who will accept and who won't, it is up to humans (free will) to choose or deny this free gift of grace in Jesus. Calvinists feel that this position undermines the sovereignty of God, while Arminists hold that the Calvinist position makes savaltion compulsory (you don't have a choice of being saved, God has either counted you in or out already). Let's get some discussion going on this - I'm leaning toward Arminism at this point as it seems that Calvinism makes God manipulative at best and whimsical at worst! Attached are a list of redicously complicated words that I'm learning - thought I'd throw them in for kicks and giggles!

Theophany - a physical appearance of God to a person
a se - from himself (aseity)
avatar - an incarnation or embodiment (usually referred to in Hinduism)
Monism - the doctrine that there is only one ultimate substace beit matter, mind or a third thing that is has its basis in both
Demiurge - creator
Plenitude - whole/entire
Soterlogical - salvation through Jesus
Propitiatry - to win or gain the good will of
adumbration - foreshadow; sketch; overshadow
Supralapsarian - hyper-Calvinist doctrine that believes God's plan of salvation and election began before the Fall
Infralapsarianism (or Sublapsarianism) - moderate Calvinist who believe God' plan of salvation began after the fall
tautological - needless repetition
Teleogically - final causation
Reprobation - rejection by God for salvation

Please Pray this month:
- I need a good plan for meeting with my mentors - pray that this would come together well (it's a mess right now)
- Transition into the new semester (I'm taking fewer credits (14))
- A plan to visit RI - I'm finally getting a little home sick - pray that God would show me how to visit and when
- Witness here at my apartment complex: there are many here who might benefit from an informal Bible study and I'm thinking of starting a group or test-piloting a group - pray for discernment.