19 February 2007

Update on the 'Bat Signal'

Hey Gang - I just wanted drop a quick note to let you know I'm doing ok - still overwhelmed, but not panicky anymore. I've been able to get a lot of the off campus work (interviewing various pastors and chaplains) done as well as my denominational conference (I took another class with them for a week). I seem to be catching up on my workload in an acceptable fashion. Thank you for praying - the difference was almost immediate. - more soon - keep it up! - love, ter

02 February 2007

Spring?

'Spring' semester; such an optimistic term right now... Well, here we are, kids - the heart of seminary: my last semester of BOTH languages, one pastoral theology class, one religious services class, one preaching class and two learning contracts (one on grace the other on pastoral identity) - anyone else hearing "...and a partridge in a pear tree..."

As you can tell, my humor is a bit off. I care a great deal about this semester - the things I am and will be learning will be foundational to my life in ministry; and that scares me to death. the implications of all that I'm learning feel very heavy and I don't know how to encapsulate what I'm thinking/feeling other than to say I feel overwhelmed on an almost daily basis. It is very hard to know the grace of God in the middle of this. And it's not because I think God is being ungracious to me, I think I'm allowing my fears to be the thing I focus on.

So I need you, body of Christ. Pray for me. Not that I succeed or even do well academically, but that my heart would know peace in this time of trail; that my victory will be communion with the Father in spite of the circumcises. It is the age old battle, I do know that - will I trust God or my eyes. You know where I long to be: entreat the Father to strengthen me to be there.

Thanks, friends. - love, Ter